Sad/angry mood

paintings

Trauma 80x80cm

acrylic on canvas.

Somewhere deep and very dark within our soul, we’ve hidden our hurts and traumas — the ones that shape us and weigh down our existence.

So deep that we can no longer reach them — because we don’t believe such pitch-black darkness could exist inside us.

I found this dark place within myself. I found it, and it hurts...

But this is only one path to freedom. Freedom from influence, from beliefs, from imposed rules. Only this path leads to truly being oneself!

"Trauma" is a work about the profound pain of discovering that dark side of the soul — and accepting what lies buried there, including the truths of my childhood.

Stranger to myself

60x60cm. acrylic on canvas.

When I started this painting,
I simply wanted to create a beautiful, dreamlike portrait of myself —
with flowers 🌸 and birds 🕊️.
I dreamed of light, of joy, of quiet wonder ✨

But during the process, I had a borderline episode.
It shifts how I see the world —
everything feels different, and I can't help myself.
It’s like falling into a dark place 🌑
with no way out.
The world begins to push me away,
and I’m alone.
The pain is so deep, words fall short 💔
And in that pain, I look at a face
that doesn’t feel like mine anymore.